Oh Loves!

Hey Lovelies,
Just thought I'll say hi to all my new followers!
Hellooo XD. Ha.
Thanks for all the lovely comments and I follow anyone who follows my blog!
Almost 100 followers!! So exciting!! <3

Update:

I am still in PA and my gosh it is soo boring! I am mostly not enjoying it for the simple fact that I miss my boyfriend oh soo much! It kills me knowing I am so many miles away.
Ah!
Anywho, I hope you're all well and Stay Beautiful Lovelies.

xoxo

-lea

Oh My Goodnessss!!!

Sorry Loves, I've been soo busy. I will be visiting my daddy in PA. Who lives around there?

Anyone?! Anyone at all haha.

Well, life has been pretty decent.

Good News : 9 months with the 'bf', goshness! <3 He is wonderful!







Bad News : My Pickles (Iguana) passed away.. why do all my pets keep dying?? I swear I take good care of them. I guess I'm just not meant to have a little creature to love.   :( 
R.I.P Pickles.

Good News : I got a cute little shih-tzu. OMG! It is so adorable! Her name is Lacie.

But no one can replace 'Lexy', my precious 3 year old shih tzu who passed away in March.

I miss her ..R.I.P Lexy.

 Wasn't she gorgeous?

My Lexy was so beautiful. She was unlike anything in my life. I miss her dearly.

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Well sorry my lovelies, I sound so depressed. I love you all and I will try to post on a daily basis once again. I hope you are all well.

XOXO

Insanely in-love

She walked through the woods like she did everyday. Each day she took the same path, each day she took the same steps.  It was never clear to her why she felt the need to live like this, but yet she knew familiarity was the way to go. There are things she just can't control and that itself is the purpose of her story. Fate!
She thought, 'everything happens for a reason, and if i'm meant to walk this path again and again..then it shall be just that'.


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I am madly in love! He might not be perfection but he is indeed amazing in my eyes. Michael Wisdom is his name and an angel indeed!
5 months together!! <3

a fool with dreams

These song lyric's make me think of my bf but the truth is he don't deserve to hear this said to him or deserve me..so why am I still with him?
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I know you're scared inside
But baby so am I
It gets so hard to hide
I'm not going nowhere, I'm not going nowhere

I'm a fool with dreams, and not a lot of things
I swear that I will be all you need, don't give up on me
Give me one more day, don't give this all away
We'll be fine you'll see, just don't give up on me

-Framing Hanley



Favorite Band Ever!!
I would have told this to my bf but he don't deserve it, he don't deserve me!!
Favorite Band Everrrrr!!!

I would have said this to my bf once but he don't deserve it and doesn't deserve me.

it's you!

dear babii,

yeah i am stubborn. i don't want to let you go...at times you're jealous, dumb, a big ass jerk, insensitive, and a freaking lunatic..but fate brought you to me and as hard as it is to admit it. i love you, all of you..just the way you are.



...and as hard as I try & I try...I can't get you out of my head...and I don't ever want to.

..day by day

Hello loves,
well today has been a rather depressing day. I am not ready to really talk about it since i'm still very much still in pain..and the fact that my so called bf hasn't gotten in contact with me is simply disappointing. I am in disbelieve and emotionally unattatched to everything that is going on today.
Sad? Yes, very!

He is supposed to be there for me when I am hurt, like how I have always been there for him. Honestly, after this traumatic incident if I don't hear from him soon it will be officially over! I do not want to be involved with someone who simply does not care for me.
I am not at all excited for spring break.
I guess I'll be taking life day by day...see where that takes me.
I'll be going to church tomorrow, maybe in some sort of way ..it will help.

...and let us all keep in mind what is going on in Japan, it is very sad and my problems compared to theirs seem like nothing at all but my heart is still very much shattered. Cherish all your little moments with your loved ones because you don't know when you will be seeing them again.


Well, hope you are all well my lovelies.. I have noticed I have gotten a couple more followers so hello and welcome.

I fooled around & fell in love

"It is better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all".

Really?!

When I was in a very difficult time in my life God put a man in my life. At first, being the mess that I am I thought nothing of it.

BIG MISTAKE!!

He brought me happiness when my poor heart was so alone.
And for the first time, I felt beautiful feelings for this beautiful person.
My gosh! Was he wonderful!
Every time we kissed, my heart exploded with butterflies.


BUT...

I use past tense not because I don't feel that way anymore but because he might not be in my life for long..not my decision but his mistake.

So I ask, when one falls in love and it's entirely taken advantage of how do you explain to your heart that it needs to fall out of love, that as strong as it might feel that it needs to keep on beating without him..?

How do you explain to your mind that it needs to stop bringing up every moment spent with him up..?!

When one falls in love and you allow him to get the best of you, what is left of you when he is gone...?

I am trying to be optimistic but as much as I try and try the only thought that is stuck in my head is, " I love him and always will..I can not and will not live without him" ..maybe i'm being pathetic.

..and in case I am never able to mend a soon to be broken heart at least i'll know that for a while he was all mine.

Okay, so I know what ya'll are thinking. "GIRL, he hasn't ended things!!"
True.

But..the fact that I know something is off, tears me apart..

I am not ready to let go of the fireworks and butterflies I get when we kiss...who really is ever ready for the one person you saw yourself with for the rest of your life to leave you and destroy your one and only heart??


Enough though.
Since I should not be overthinking everything my mind comes up with.

Ahh maybe I like driving myself crazy?

Oh well.


Goodbye my loves

Hugs & Kisses

when it come to love...

i have this theory about guys, it's not a great one..but it's mine.

if guys could choose between being in love or never loving..they'll go with never having to love.

why?

because men love little.
and they rarely love.
they would rather be superior.
and obviously not all women are okay with that.
men are unable to be equal..and their love is never equal.
you must be close to the definition of perfection to get a man's love.
i am not talking about ' we've been together for a month and were madly in love ' kinda deal.
because all that is nonsense and it's senseless how one can actually believe such a thing.
that's not the kind of love any woman might want...
of course my theory doesn't include all men, there are a couple that are actually different.
and my theory does not pertain to them. 



the different ones: the kinda guys who don't carry a mirror in their pocket, metaphorically of course.
they are the ones who have loved, they've experienced real love...and possibly lost it. 
they are the ones who will hold your hand at all times, they are the ones who can tell apart your smile in a crowd.
they are the ones who can look you in the eyes and not judge you for where they've been. 
they are the ones who won't give up on you when the rest of the world has. 
..but unfortunately, their isn't many of them.

“Woman was taken out of man; not out of his head to top him, nor out of his feet to be trampled underfoot; but out of his side to be equal to him, under his arm to be protected, and near his heart to be loved.”

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 dear guys,

love is stupid, scary, shy, reckless, awkward, silly, and at times painful..but love is love.

you need to be willing to dive in to feel the beauty of it. 

girls just want someone who wants them back, at least thats what I want. 

that's pretty much all there is to it...everyone wants to be wanted by somebody.

love

lea (: 

p.s.

to those who lost me, those who weren't able to keep me longer. those who said always and forever. 

it's not that you went horribly wrong, or that you didn't impact my life in some way... you just weren't willing to go all the way. you all could have fixed what went wrong, you could have made everything better but you all chose not to. i wanted you to fight for me. and tell me that you would rather be alone than with anyone else! 

i didn't ask for the stars, i just wished for them. and you all weren't able to tell the difference. 

love you all <333

..autumn leaves

She closed her eyes and for a second, just for a split second she wished she could go away..away from everything and everyone. Everything had been going her way, amazing boyfriend, great friends..heck even her studies were alright..but even then, she wished for the impossible.

(Yay!! 12 days till my birthday..12 more days. I'll be 18 soon..not like it makes a difference.)

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 I don't ask for much.
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I just wish for the stars.

La La ..Lame!

 Ahh it's been forever!! I've been busy with some school work, since my birthday is coming up (November 16) I need to hurry up and get my diploma..Seriously!! ( I've been saying that for 8 months now) I've been finishing up my Journalism and Algebra 2. Which I have yet to finish, the deal was I would be able to get out of school as long as I agreed to be home schooled. My parents weren't going to deal with any of my nonsense just because...and everyone out there, please don't get home schooled..ahh it is horrible!! Trust me, you will hate it!!

  But..moving along..

 
Just started dating an amazing guy by the name of Michael :)
..ha yays september 26..he seems like a keeper!

I just got a new Chihuahua puppy. I named him Odi! What is it about those furry animals you can't help but love? Could it be that maybe they keep you from getting lonely..? Maybe so, in my case they keep me from becoming depressed. As long as i have some sort of creature at my house, I know I'll be loved ha :)

Any who, I also recently got a kitten she has the most brightest blue eyes i have ever seen. She gets along with all my other pets which is always a plus. I might be giving her away though, which is unfortunate since she is such a cutie. I have so many dogs that one kitten is just odd, and my mother just simply won't let me keep her..that's actually the main reason.