Insanely in-love

She walked through the woods like she did everyday. Each day she took the same path, each day she took the same steps.  It was never clear to her why she felt the need to live like this, but yet she knew familiarity was the way to go. There are things she just can't control and that itself is the purpose of her story. Fate!
She thought, 'everything happens for a reason, and if i'm meant to walk this path again and again..then it shall be just that'.


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I am madly in love! He might not be perfection but he is indeed amazing in my eyes. Michael Wisdom is his name and an angel indeed!
5 months together!! <3

Just be a queen

Ah my loves, I am still head over heels for my boyfriend..it's funny how through all our random, dumb arguments, I still adore him with such a passion.

I love him with all my pretty little heart. I'm happy! :)

Anywho, enough lovie dovie crap hehe. How awesome is Lady Gaga?!

Totally amazingly AWESOME!

I love how she isn't like anybody else, she is uberly unique!

Her style makes me smile (:

(Gosh! Isn't that black dress just fabulous!?!)

Who Says?!

You made me insecure,
Told me I wasn't good enough.
But who are you to judge,
When you're a diamond in the rough.

I adore Lindsay Lohan, regardless of her reputation. She is perfect in her own way, she has flaws but who doesnt?

Beauty!

I wouldn't wanna be anyone else, and I have a feeling she wouldn't either.

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Welcome my new followers.

Hugs & Kisses!

guyysss

All guys will ever want ..is some assssss!!

Trust Me!

a fool with dreams

These song lyric's make me think of my bf but the truth is he don't deserve to hear this said to him or deserve me..so why am I still with him?
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I know you're scared inside
But baby so am I
It gets so hard to hide
I'm not going nowhere, I'm not going nowhere

I'm a fool with dreams, and not a lot of things
I swear that I will be all you need, don't give up on me
Give me one more day, don't give this all away
We'll be fine you'll see, just don't give up on me

-Framing Hanley



Favorite Band Ever!!
I would have told this to my bf but he don't deserve it, he don't deserve me!!
Favorite Band Everrrrr!!!

I would have said this to my bf once but he don't deserve it and doesn't deserve me.

Cleo

This here, is my new bunnie..Cleo. Short for Cleopatra hehe XD

I would put more pictures up but it rarely lets me take any, it's very hyper and all over the place.

That's actually all for today, I'm pretty busy these days.

Hope you are all well.

xoxo

spring break

hey lovesss!

I recently got back from corpus chrisi yesterday, I was at the island..very fun if I must say. I enjoyed it, but of course I could have had way more fun. I took loads of pictures but I am indeed very lazy to post them.

..anywho,
I recently got a baby bunnie, it is adorable. I will try to post some pics soon.
The death of my Lex has seriously traumatized me but the fact that I still have a turtle, iguana (pickles), birds, a stray pigeon and my now new bunny to feed..well it does help in some ways. It helps in distractions...

Well, it is close to being 2 am so I shall get some sleep. I've had lots on my mind today and need some rest from it all. Hope you're all doing good lovelies.

xoxo

..day by day

Hello loves,
well today has been a rather depressing day. I am not ready to really talk about it since i'm still very much still in pain..and the fact that my so called bf hasn't gotten in contact with me is simply disappointing. I am in disbelieve and emotionally unattatched to everything that is going on today.
Sad? Yes, very!

He is supposed to be there for me when I am hurt, like how I have always been there for him. Honestly, after this traumatic incident if I don't hear from him soon it will be officially over! I do not want to be involved with someone who simply does not care for me.
I am not at all excited for spring break.
I guess I'll be taking life day by day...see where that takes me.
I'll be going to church tomorrow, maybe in some sort of way ..it will help.

...and let us all keep in mind what is going on in Japan, it is very sad and my problems compared to theirs seem like nothing at all but my heart is still very much shattered. Cherish all your little moments with your loved ones because you don't know when you will be seeing them again.


Well, hope you are all well my lovelies.. I have noticed I have gotten a couple more followers so hello and welcome.

I fooled around & fell in love

"It is better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all".

Really?!

When I was in a very difficult time in my life God put a man in my life. At first, being the mess that I am I thought nothing of it.

BIG MISTAKE!!

He brought me happiness when my poor heart was so alone.
And for the first time, I felt beautiful feelings for this beautiful person.
My gosh! Was he wonderful!
Every time we kissed, my heart exploded with butterflies.


BUT...

I use past tense not because I don't feel that way anymore but because he might not be in my life for long..not my decision but his mistake.

So I ask, when one falls in love and it's entirely taken advantage of how do you explain to your heart that it needs to fall out of love, that as strong as it might feel that it needs to keep on beating without him..?

How do you explain to your mind that it needs to stop bringing up every moment spent with him up..?!

When one falls in love and you allow him to get the best of you, what is left of you when he is gone...?

I am trying to be optimistic but as much as I try and try the only thought that is stuck in my head is, " I love him and always will..I can not and will not live without him" ..maybe i'm being pathetic.

..and in case I am never able to mend a soon to be broken heart at least i'll know that for a while he was all mine.

Okay, so I know what ya'll are thinking. "GIRL, he hasn't ended things!!"
True.

But..the fact that I know something is off, tears me apart..

I am not ready to let go of the fireworks and butterflies I get when we kiss...who really is ever ready for the one person you saw yourself with for the rest of your life to leave you and destroy your one and only heart??


Enough though.
Since I should not be overthinking everything my mind comes up with.

Ahh maybe I like driving myself crazy?

Oh well.


Goodbye my loves

Hugs & Kisses

crazy?

Dear me,

2011 is here and it has changed me for the worse.
Well I guess i've always been kind of a mess so it's all good.
I have yet to accomplish my goals for 2011 and that it self is disappointing.
But hey at least I have someone special in my life now so... yay.

Trying to be optimistic, so let's hope for the best.



Your truely,
lea


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..autumn leaves

She closed her eyes and for a second, just for a split second she wished she could go away..away from everything and everyone. Everything had been going her way, amazing boyfriend, great friends..heck even her studies were alright..but even then, she wished for the impossible.

(Yay!! 12 days till my birthday..12 more days. I'll be 18 soon..not like it makes a difference.)

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 I don't ask for much.
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I just wish for the stars.

La La ..Lame!

 Ahh it's been forever!! I've been busy with some school work, since my birthday is coming up (November 16) I need to hurry up and get my diploma..Seriously!! ( I've been saying that for 8 months now) I've been finishing up my Journalism and Algebra 2. Which I have yet to finish, the deal was I would be able to get out of school as long as I agreed to be home schooled. My parents weren't going to deal with any of my nonsense just because...and everyone out there, please don't get home schooled..ahh it is horrible!! Trust me, you will hate it!!

  But..moving along..

 
Just started dating an amazing guy by the name of Michael :)
..ha yays september 26..he seems like a keeper!

I just got a new Chihuahua puppy. I named him Odi! What is it about those furry animals you can't help but love? Could it be that maybe they keep you from getting lonely..? Maybe so, in my case they keep me from becoming depressed. As long as i have some sort of creature at my house, I know I'll be loved ha :)

Any who, I also recently got a kitten she has the most brightest blue eyes i have ever seen. She gets along with all my other pets which is always a plus. I might be giving her away though, which is unfortunate since she is such a cutie. I have so many dogs that one kitten is just odd, and my mother just simply won't let me keep her..that's actually the main reason.

woahh!

 Gosh!! i'm so glad the week is over. It's been so exhausting!! I love the weekends haha..i am extremely ready to go partying tomorrow! Saturdays are the best! 
I've been doing lots of reading & school work. AHH!! I just want to take a minute and thank coffee for its miraculous wonders..coffee without you i would not be able to wake up in the mornings hehe :D

Mean Girls

"Halloween is the one night a year when girls can dress like a total slut and no other girls can say anything about it."

Hot coffee

7 am...that is the precise time i was awaken today, why you ask!? The nonstop crying of  five 2 week old schnauzer puppies.Aahh yes a headache is on it's way, enough to ruin my entire day..or is it? I wake and head straight to my coffee maker, oh what would i do without it! The sweet aroma of just brewed coffee is what keeps me strong through out my day ha ha.